Holy....

Alright, first off, sorry for not posting in such a long time. Busy with a lot of things between stress and band and school and family and my relationship. But yeah. This will probably be a long post. I've missed blogging, as in, a lot.
Unfortunately, I've sunken back into depression. I can't help it. And I do not want to go back to a counselor. I'm on enough medicine for my migraines as is. I'm stressing over moving, I'm leaving my wonderful NC in a month to go to NY, that isn't helping much. I don't know if I'll get credit for this semester or not and I really need the credits. All the stress has caused me to get pretty sick so now I'm on a lot of medicine.

I'm also almost on the line of being considered anorexic. If I loose much more weight I'll get in trouble with my doctor(s). Stupid migraine medicine makes me have no appetite what so ever.

The wonderful veins showing on my face should be a good indicator of how stressed I am, right? It's normal for them to show up when I've turned back pale for the winter [towards the middle of winter though.] But, I've still got my tan. And the veins are showing around my eyes, temples, and mouth. It. Looks. Creepy.

Hopefully tomorrow I will upload some drawings I've done in school, for I'm taking Art History [even though I signed up for ArtI] I think I've gotten a little bit better. I've even painted a few things. Although I've only gotten one of them back, my Day of the Dead mask. Yay crap camera! *sends pictures to yahoo....tries to upload them....*



Yes, I know it looks bad, and the picture has horrible quality. I'm sorry. But I had fun painting it, and it makes a really nice mask. (:

Oh, I'm kinda debating weather I want to try and help animate this movie thing: rawr. It looks like fun, but I don't have a lot of patience or practice with animation. So I'm not sure. I probably won't take it just because of my lack of experience and how little patience I have.

I'm actually passing my civics class. I'm so proud of myself. :') This is the first history-ish class I've been in where I've been passing. [passing as in making B's and C's instead of F's and D's] And to think that everyone said that this is the hardest history class you have to take in high school. X3 I win. Hahaha.

Okay, long post is over. I'll try my best to upload something tomorrow since I wont get home until 6. Peace!

Oh yeah, if anyone's still reading this thing, how's life?

Uhm...

D: It's been over a month since my last post D: I'm soooo sorry people! [I've been busy with getting my medicines right and doctors visits and hospital visits and exams and so on and so forth.]

BUT I HAVE SOME ART STUFF!

Okay, first the purple eye, for my friend Abi [I love the way she spells her name :D]
Second, I just changed the wolfs eye color from amberish to blue gray...so yeah.
I have others, but I need to scan them into the computer, once I do I'll put them up here.


So yeah, please forgive me for not being on much D:
~Racheal

Wow

"Her headaches are constant increasing in pain with each passing day she cant even manage to stand on her own its gotten so bad"

Yeah, had to go to the hospital Friday morning. It wasn't fun. :| But anywho, I now have pills...which don't work...and make me tired and dizzy...and I don't eat. Hardly at all [like, today, I ate 2 pieces of bread ._.]

And I still have horrible headaches.

So as soon as I can stay fairly out of the fetal position I shall draw/write something.

I don't even know if I typing this right cause I'm half asleep and I'm not looking at the computer...I'm just typing whatever I think of aha ^^"

Being grounded sucks.

Yeah, I was grounded for a few days [it would've been longer...but I'm good at convincing >:)] So, I had my phone, computer, tablet, and any pencils my mom could find taken >< Ugh.

So I haven't drawn anything...sorry.

OH, please, tell me if this is fare: Jonathon and I were just hugging, not even really close like we normally do, and we got written up. An hour before school even started. We now have an hour and a half of ASD on Monday. Fuck. I hate our principal. Asshole. [sorry for all the swearing. ]

ON A LIGHTER NOTE! Next Saturday is the Wicked trip :D I can't wait.

I'm loosing a lottt of weight lately. ._." It's not healthy, I know...oh well.

Nothin' else to say,
~Racheal.

Okay.

I've been doodling fennec foxes a LOT lately, with horrible anatomy might I add. Once I make a decent looking one I'll post it. I would've had one already but I had to do a spanish project...that was due Monday >< And, not being racist at ALL here, but, white people, such as mehself, shouldn't speak spanish. Because we fail. And then our spanish speaking friends make fun of our horrible grammar and the way we pronounce words the 'white' way. :< ANYWAY! I'm almost through with the hell that is drivers ed. THANK JERKY! :3 Although I'll have to take the finally exam....cause I fail. Oh well :|

Doomy doomy doom >:3

Peace. Out. [yay Dark Angel quotes <3]
~Racheal

THE DRAWINGS ARE FINALLY UP!!!

Yay! There finally up, the scanner took it's sweet ass time....but there finally here :D A maned wolf and a carousel horse ^-^ Enjoy.

~Racheal

Tonight..

IF my scanner decides to cooperate, there will be a new drawing up tonight [!] *victory pose*

I love carousel horses...but they always look so angry and wild....maybe they just wanna run...so that's what the drawing is about ^^ A freed carousel horse....yay?

Cheesy...I know. BUT I'm very pleased with the result, I kinda wanna put a background up....but i don't wanna mess up the awesome horse [even though it's like only the 3rd horse I've ever drawn]

And to try and make it look right...I studied horse anatomy for like an hour before starting ha ha ha....but yeah. If the scanner decides to work that picture will be up tonight ^^

Neigh :3
~Racheal

Woof..

12:45ish a.m., tired as hell, but I DON'T wanna sleep. *puts on stubborn face*

I'm a very violent sleeper, I bruised my ribs in my sleep last night. And I still have bruises from 4 nights ago >< Yippie! Not. I can't hardly breathe from the bruises on my ribs, sooo, I probably pulled a few muscles *giant sigh* Owwie T~T Ha Ha Ha.

I'm also sunburnt. Thank you for being near 90 degrees outside already. I hate you NC. Grrroar. >:

Oh yeah, go here, tis an awesome site, very funny too, and you learn things :D [all be it things you'll probably NEVER use in your life.....but you'll feel a little bit smarter after reading]

I've nearly got Jonathon convinced to let me get all the tattoo's I want [when I come of age so I don't need a parent to sign off on it.]

I want a butterfly [black and red or purple or blue, I don't know which color besides black yet]
And I want a barcode tattoo :D Just cause they look cool.
And a barbed wire tattoo.
But, if I can only have one, it'd be the kick ass butterfly.
I'm not allowed to get branded, and that's what I wanted the most ;-; But, I can get my ears pierced again ^^ Just not my lip, nose, or eyebrow aha >< Grrr.

Okay, random post is random, I WILL post at least one picture up tomorrow. [I hope.....if not...well, I'm truly sorry.]

Off to bed!.....in a little bit....maybe....dum dum dummmm!
~Racheal

Oops...

Haha, I posted a post on my other blog last night on accident x3

I have sunburn, it sucks.

And now mom is making me go through all my things, I'm getting rid of a lot of it too. Yay ^^ Most of my clothes no longer fit because: a) there to big D; or b) there too little [I suppose after having a shirt for 5+ years...it may not fit anymore ha ha ha]

I'm starting to get bored of spring break aha ^^"

Anywho, back to sorting out this mess of mine ><
~Racheal

Hmm..lets see...

It's 1am, I promised Jonathon I'd attempt to sleep by now. But I'm wide-a-fucking-wake. Brilliant. :S I cannot sleep. I haven't been able to for days, and then when I do finally go to the evil land of sleep, I waste most of the day there.

And I have work I have to do during the day.

This really sucks.

I keep listening to the same songs. Over and over and overandoverandover again. They. Are. Annoying. But I can't stop listening to them.

Grrr.

I don't know when Imma sleep.

But it has to be before 3.

Or else he gets mad ._.

I don't like him mad.

It's scary.

Like when I drink a monster...or amp.

That's incredibly scary for those of you who don't know.

I'm loosing my Yankee accent. D;

I liked my accent.

It made me specialer.

I miss it.

Woowww, this is a random post.

I've had a thorn stuck in my foot for 3 days now. It's starting to get infected. It hurts. But now I have an awesome Spongebob bandaid on it :D I like Spongebob, he's awesomely awesome ha ha ha.

1:10am, greeeeeeeeeat. :<

My back hurts. ><

Wait, I cracked it....it felt good....but now my backs hurting worse D:
I can't win.

Okay, I'm gonna find something else to do besides waste your brains away.
~Racheal

Here comes Petter Cottontail...

Happy Easter all ^-^ [even though I don't celebrate it like I suppose others do...I'm just in it for the giant meal at supper :3]

I found an awesome song that I would sososo dance to under the full moon....if I could download it to my ipod..if I had the wires...I soooo would.

Here are the lyrics:

Close your eyes little girl
You're a princess now
You own this world
Twirling in your twirly dress
You're the loveliest far above the rest
You build your castles in the skies
Stars reflecting off your eyes
And angels sing on silver clouds
And no one cries screams or shouts'

Ooohh set apart this dream
Set apart this dream for me
Set apart this dream
For me

Close your eyes pretty girl cause its easier when you brace yourself
Set your thoughts on a world far off
Where we only cry from joy

Ooohh set apart this dream
Set apart this dream for me
Set apart this dream
For me

Oh lovely and beautiful
Precious and priceless
You're so much more than you know
Heart of the purest gold
Pure clean and white as snow
Clothed in such splendor
Oh what a beauty for me.

Set apart this dream
Set apart this dream

Ooohh set apart this dream (set apart this dream)
Set apart this dream(set apart this dream for me)
Set apart this dream for me

And the link to this pretty song: Flyleaf-Set Apart This Dream

Oh, I saved a dogs life today, I'm very proud of myself ^^
The dog is the dog my little sister and I are pup-sitting for most of spring break. [I'm the only one watching her though ><]

My headache pills [which I'm still taking cause they have caffeine in them] also double as diet pills [which explains why I'm losing weight I don't really need to lose.]

I want to go to the library. I want to read the book: The Art of Chasing Rain. I've read a little bit of it in stores [I go to stores like Walmart and Target with my family just so I can hide in the aisles and read random books, so far I've read most of Loose Girl, it's a pretty good book if I do say so myself. Aha I'm a geek, I know '-']

I need caffeine...so I can have an hour without such a bad headache. Ahhhh

*hugs* Racheal

Special wolf and headache research

First off, here's a picture, just finished:


And secondly: I found this website, I think this is what I have. Chronic Tension Headaches, how lovely. Now knowing that they can last upwards of 90 days near non stop is wonderful. And some of the only medicines that can help them are: antidepressants, anti seizure, and muscle relaxants. :\ I'm NOT taking any of those. I'll stick to my barely working, no sleep allowed, no food allowed migraine medicine thank you very much.

Anyways, I'm out.
~Racheal

So far...

...this is what I am, accourding to other people: I'm a dinosaur [a Rachealsourus to be exact.]
A bunny [cause I like eating lettuce]
A deer [cause I seriously just ate four ears of corn.] [And Jonathon, being a smartass, said: I wouldn't kill you! (he's a fuzzy killer ._.) ...Unless... :Me: Unless what?? :Him: Unless I really want the meat. :Me: D;]
And I'm a dog [cause I bite...a lot. Whenever Gabe hugs me, Jonathon makes a 'muzzle' so I don't bite Gabe X3]

Mwahaha....I'm evil...sometimes. Teehee.

I started listening to Otep again, I'd forgotten how awesome the music was. ><

I still need to find some 'school appropriate' music to use in my spanish project...sooo I have to listen to 10 c.d's to find a song that I can use...and that I like enough. Or, I could just go and download some music from the wonderful interwebs.

The grass...it NEEDS to be cut, but it's been too wet to cut it. :\ It's annoying me a a bit..it's getting hard to run around and not twist my ankles. Aha....yeah.

I DREW A PICTURE....BUT I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO UPLOAD IT CAUSE IT'S IN PENCIL AND I CAN'T USE THE SCANNER AT THE MOMENT I'M SOSOSO SORRY PEOPLE!

Anyway, random post.
~Racheal

Okay...

First off, Robert, you posted. I literally did my happy dance. I looked incredibly stupid but yeah. Thank you for posting! [:

But yeah, onto today's topic.

To start off, this girl that rides Jonathon's bus....I hate her. A. Lot. End of story. Not only does she do things that she SHOULDN'T do with MY boyfriend, but then she gets totally pissed at me for saying she's a slut. [I mean really, if you're pregnant in the 8th grade, and you getting married the next summer to a TOTALLY DIFFERENT GUY, you're a slut. Prove me wrong if you wish. And no, she wasn't raped or whatever so yeah.] Any who, now she wants to beat the shit outta me. And her cousin [Matthew, my now ex best friend] also wants to beat the shit outta me for telling him to get a handle on his cousin cause she was on Jonathon again. And, to top it all off, he got this other girl involved, and now she wants to beat the shit outta me....to impress Matthew.

When I learned all this I seriously went: '-' hoe sheet. ._.

Uhmm..yeah. I haven't had time to get any art done, too much school work, too much regular work, and too much drama to concentrate on anything. [Honestly, I haven't slept in two days from worrying so much about this. And I don't even hardly feel tired...which is strange.]

I'm no longer allowed to take those miracle headache pills, because they no longer work, they make me not eat, and they don't help my sleeplessness any, in fact, they make it worse. [: [I'm smiling on the outside, but inside, I'm about to die.]

Hmmm....has anyone heard the piece Moscow, 1941 by Brian Balmanges [I think that's how you spell his name]? The band's playing it for our end of year concert. So far, it's my favorite piece. Yeah, I'm a dark person liking a song about the war. Sue me. [please don't I'm poor enough.]

Well, this is enough, I have two projects to do, 3 test's to study for, and a few signatures I have to forage. Woo. Not.

Sorry for crappy posts,
~Racheal

Words can't describe how happy I am right now.

Seriously, after MONTHS of near non stop headaches and experimenting with different medicines and combination's of medicines [yes, I know that I'm very smart for combining medicines] I finally found a migraine medicine that's off brand and WORKS! And, the best part is that I only have to take it once every 24 hours :D So yeah, no more feeling like theirs a hammer falling into my head [yes, I do know what that feels like]

So yeah *victory dance*

LaTeRz!
~Racheal

Festival. :]

Festival tomorrow :] Then going to Denny's with the band mwahaha, not to mention that I get out of a world history test :D I have to be at school at 7:45 [I get there at 7:15 though...usually] I leave at 8, two hours later and really close to the coast is where the band preforms [: Then we get back around 4 [after stopping for some lunch at 2 bwahaha] thennnn off to Denny's. Yay for fun days :)

Oh, for anyone willing to answer, is it okay to have headaches EVERY day? ._. For a couple months straight? Cause I'm starting to wonder aha....uhmm yeah.

Haven't had time for much drawing except for a few sketches which I'm not allowed to post online because they belong to other people and I really don't wanna get in trouble. Hah...

Song[s] I'm obsessed with at the moment (this is only to take up space cause I don't want a short post for some reason.) : This could be anywhere (alexisonfire [is it alexis on fire or alex is on fire??]) Nothing good has happened yet (We are the ocean) Pet (A perfect circle) aaaand Me against the world (simple plan)

Yay for space-taker-uperers :D

Uhmm...Im'ma go and try to get rid of the second headache today :\

~Racheal

I'm sorry about this.

[Sorry for all swear words about to be said, but I need to vent, badly.]

If it wasn't for the damned law some fucking people would have their damned heads smeared along the roads. Damned people beating innocent animals. God damned! Poor dog came to me, scared as hell, cause her owners fuckin' beat her all the damned time. She needed her paw taken off cause a fox [or feral dog] mangled it, and what do those good for nothing owners do? They fuckin' wait MONTHS [!!!] till they do anything and then she has her whole front leg off. Fuck! They don't feed the poor dog nearly enough, I feed her when she comes over, and when I sit down to watch her, she climbs into my lap and she looks as if I'm about to beat her like those fuckers that call themselves human.

Okay, I'm done, I think, sorry if that didn't make ANY sence what so ever. :\ Damn it just pissed me off so badly I was crying. I hate crying, I HATE people like the ones mentioned in this post. No,
I don't hate them, hate isn't a strong enough word....despise? I still don't think that's a good enough word.

Pictures.

I've been really busy lately, what with Festival coming up and open houses and being sick I haven't been able to draw much :(((( So, I have some pictures of things.




Okays, the first one is my desk (: Aaaaand then the result of being bored in class [the big one in the middle was done at 6:20am yesterday while waiting on my bus, the one to the right was done in 3rd period (yay for the school day almost being over!!!) and the one on the left was done in 1st period (boo boring science lectures)] the third one is my wall of sexiness ;) Aaaaand finally my 16 year old dream catcher :D

Well, this is all I've got for now, I think I'm going to practice my clarinet so I sound awesome at Festival, which is on Wednesday [yay for 2ish hour bus rides to the coast ><] oh well, it'll be fun (:

~Racheal

Seriously, watch this.

For the love of pitties. Watch that, yeah.
Yeah, I like pits, and rots, and all those other dogs. 'Nuff said. :< [[One of the greatest dogs I've had was half rot. So yeah. booshyeah.]]



I don't have any new art, anything I've drawn has just been random crappy doodles. Sorry, forgive me? ._.


I reallyreallyreallyreally need to sleep. Gah, I need sleep, I look half dead and yet my brains on over drive. Stupid friggin nightmares. And insomnia. Bleh. But yeah. At least I get the very few hours I do. :<


Oh yeah, fishy. ><> <>< ><> <>< ^^

~Racheal.

Random

Teehee, I've had a really good day....so I drew this:

Yes, no background, it's not even finished yet :/ haha...sideboob of dooooom! X3

Band practice was today, were awesome. :] Yeah, I brag. Hell to the yeah.

I've been hyper all day....without any sugar....its weird, but I like it ^^

Hahahaha, Jonathon poked my nose this morning, apparently I made this face: :O Haha, yay for hyperness randomness!

We started signing up for next years classes, and I have a question: Biology...or Animal Science? Now, I want to take both, and I could, but I only want to take one science class a year, just like math and english, but, in animal science they show a video of animals being slaughtered, and in biology were probably going to dissect cats....either way Ima loose. Aha. So yeah, whats your opinion people??

Now to try and sleep, Ive got a retest tomorrow in history ><

><> FISHY!

~Racheal

SORRY FOR LOOOONG ABSENCE!

Umm..yeah. Been gone for a while, I would have posted sooner, but I've had NOTHING to talk about. Curse you living in the middle of freaking NOWHERE! -_-"

Well, happy LATE Valentines day to all you lovers out there, and to all you single people, you'll find someone...sooner or later, keep hope! (:

Okay, some artz:




1) It was a request for someone on dA, my computer HATED my guts and wouldnt work, so ut should look a hell of alot better...but it doesnt....so deal.
2) I was bored cause I wasnt allowed to go out in the snow. [yes, it FINALLY snowed here in NC for once ^-^]
3) Request for someone on dA of there fursona, Pearl. Horrible fail...but yeah...I cant draw grass. AT ALL! hahahaa.

Oh yeah, I ruined my phone when I fell on it....while trying to walk on a steep ice crusted hill during the snow storm. Damn. :\

My brother, his wife, and his son came down from NY for Valentines day ^^ Much fun, I play fought with the little kids most of the time teehee, they only won once, cause I sat down and they didnt hear me say TIME OUT! Oh well, haha, it was funnn.

As far as classes go...Im passing Spanish with a B [YAY] World History with a B [Holy fuck, I usually make F's in anything to do with history] A in Band [Of course] And a B in Earth and Environmental Science [I guess I should stop doodling in Mr. K's class... 3:]

I cant wait for Festival in March, and for the upcoming Wicked trip, does anyone know if Wicked was a good play?

I'm gonna go doodle some.....Wow long post,

Peas and mashed potatoes!

~Racheal







[[Oh yeah, do you people say: care-a-mul or car-mel? and do you say: boll or bull? And what about: Pot-ate-o or tat-ter? Jonathon and I are having an on going argument about those, Yay for being a Yankee that goes out with a Redneck hahaha]]

Random Rambles

Well, nothing major has happened. I've gone back to sleeplessness, and I'm thinking about trying some sleeping pills, or else I have giant headaches all day long. They hurt. A lot. I went to this thing in Durham yesterday, to see if I could get a scholarship for college. Turns out they just wanted us to buy this thing of theirs that would help fill out the paper work. :/ Two hours wasted. Poof. Gone. I've finally been able to catch people on Flamex again, yay ^-^ I've missed everyone. :( I passed all my exams, scored the highest in my class in English I, and made a 93 on my health/gym exam. I wish I didn't miss all those days of gym, or else I would have aced the exam. >< We had an open house again, and their will be one next weekend, and the weekend afterwords. Boo. On Wednesday it'll be my three month anniversary. Yay for my longest relationship. :) I don't have any pictures to post [yet] BUT, as soon as I do, I shall post. :)

Peace,
~Racheal

This is sad.

This is a sad video that I found on youtube.

And this is a little something I've worked on, I love my new way to draw fur. Wow, I really need to post more often. Exam's start tomorrow, I don't have to take my geometry exam because I took it in 8th grade ^-^ So, I only have to take two exam's this semester, yay. :D Hmm...nothing much has been happening in my life lately. :/ I'll post again when I have something interesting to say. Aha...
~Racheal

Happy LATE 2010!

Gah, I need to work on my timing. Badly. Anywho, nothing much has happened worth mentioning. School starts again tomorrow, I'm soo not looking forward to the exams. Meh. ._. Well, some ''art''

I've also drawn a lot of other random art, but, it all looks more horrible than these, so I'm not gonna post them. ^_^

Enjoy!
~Racheal